Doom

*Thursday, 28th February 2008*

Something strucked me yesterday.
Not physically but mentally.

A reader sent me messages on MSN yesterday. He said that he's not having a good day. I asked him why.

"My friend, Y committed suicide after he was diagnosed with HIV."

At first, I thought he might be joking so I replied with a "shocked" emoticon but then, I realised he's serious. My fingers suddenly went numb and I can't think of anything or how to reply him.

This is the second news I heard on gay guys commiting suicide. The first one, who happens to my housemate's friend, jumped to his doom from his apartment in Cheras few months ago.

According to my reader, X has been clowning around, got the virus and then asked his boyfriend, Y to go for a blood test. When Y found out that the result was a positive one, he cut himself at home.

"When I went to the house today, X was crying and begging for forgiveness from the parents."

I have seen many couples who has been together faithfully for several years and they're still at it. They gave me the solid impression (something that I can't find back in my hometown) that despite staying in this big city where temptations are lurking in every corner, being gay isn't just about sex, fun and pleasure.

Why people still do it eventhough they know it will hurt their partner?
Where are all the commitments and promises you made when you hold his hand for the first time?

Before you do something, do this. Think. Exercise your brain. You can make a difference.

May Y rest in peace.

"Nobody deserves your tears,
but whoever deserves them will not make you cry."
- Gabriel Garcia Marquez -

From My Playlist 9

*Tuesday, 26th February 2008*

傻瓜 - 温岚
Idiot - Landy Wen Lan



其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

No Longer A Theme Park Virgin

*Sunday, 24th February 2008*

Xavier typed some weird stuff to me in GTalk last week.

Xavier: Do you have a truck?
Azzuro Hyperion: Of course no, why?
Xavier: Can drive and ran it over me?
Azzuro Hyperion: O.o"

I told Jin about it and he said that Xavier must be stressed from work. So they decided to drag him to Genting for leisure on Saturday. Which turns out to be a couples' trip... 3 couples and yours truly... the only single cum photographer of the day.

Xavier's breakfast... weird looking mashed potato from BK

Guess whose heads?

The other passengers were literally sit wherever they like so they messed up with our seats number. Luckily I managed to sit nearer to them as there's an empty seat behind Xavier.

(SMS)
Xavier: Make sure you get the guy's number before we leave the bus.
Azzuro Hyperion: WTH!
Xavier: Hey, I don't ask you to change seat without reason! :P Get to work :)
Azzuro Hyperion: Erk... don't want~
Daemon: Ask him lah, "What are you reading?"
Azzuro Hyperion: *dot dot dot*
Xavier: Pretend to sleep then lean on him :P

Since when did Xavier become like Savante?? = ="

I think cable cars are scary.

The weather unfortunately was a bit warm that day. Luckily I didn't brought any jacket or sweater. For your info... this is my first time to venture into Genting's theme park.

Weee~~~ Spinner!

Space Shot. The long queue turned us off. Not because we're scared, ok :P

Lunch was at somewhere in the indoor park. We then continued to monorail etc. This is where those mushy mushy things starting to happen...

Ahemmm... someone's hand crawling somewhere...

Splash!

Carps galore!

"With our powers combined..."

On the way down to cable station.... our gondola's number.

Back to 1U for dinner except Xavier and Daemon as they have yam cha session with friends. And I followed Jin's car home after that.

My swollen knee after knocked on the roller coaster when it suddenly turns.

I enjoyed myself, it was a nice trip, maybe shall do that again. So now I can officially announce that I'm no longer a theme park virgin. :P Hope that Xavier feels better already ;)

Fcuking Love The Bus

*Friday, 22nd February 2008*

I'm fcuking love the public transport here, especially the Rapid bus. *imagine smoke rising from the head*

It was such a pity that my office and house are nowhere near to any LRT station, so the poor me, who is not driving have to rely heavily on other mode of public transport especially bus.

Waiting for bus can be described as time wasting, time consuming and energy consuming (when the pathetic bus stand did not provide enough seats and you'll have to stand) activity. Not to mention also the crowd when the bus arrived (it's a crowd, there's no such thing as a queue) that force themselves to get into the bus. This is what we call "50 years independence"? Maybe I should take a video next time.

The thing that makes me frustrated was the frequencies of the bus. There's only one type of bus passes my area and on weekends or night time, I would have to wait for a freaking one hour for the bus to arrive! I still remembered I waited from 9.15pm to 12.10am for the stupid bus in front of Times Square. I finally gave up and take the cab instead.

I learned to leave the house 2 hours earlier when I need to go out ever since.

I'm so fcuking love the public transport.

House Warming Party

*Monday, 18th February 2008*

Dear readers and bloggers,

Thanks for your concern on my previous post. Boss agreed to bear the losses and we're still waiting for the documents to be processed. I just hope that the final amount will be lesser than what I calculated. She didn't scold, warn me or harsh to me and didn't mention she's gonna reduce my salary whatsoever, just ask me to be more careful in the future. Although I'm relieved, I still feel guilty inside anyway.

* * * * * * *

Was at Andy's new place on Sunday at Kota Damansara for house-warming party. He moved in with his boyfriend (aka hubby, as what he typed in MSN) and invited a few of his friends over for steamboat. I was the earliest to arrive and they were watching Elektra.

The apartment was lovely and tidy albeit a bit small. The walls were painted apple green with matching curtain and quite windy. There's fridge, TV, sofas, washing machine, stove etc... it's like everything were complete. It's like an example of lifestyle every gay guys were dreaming about; to build up a home, a sanctuary for two people where they can hold hands or kiss whenever they wanted. Take a soapy shower together. Cook for him when he's hungry and feeling lazy to go down to pack dinner. You do the laundry in the morning and he iron the shirts in the evening. Feed you porridge when you're sick.

Anyway, I digress.

Their friends were quite a bunch of funny people.

Guy No 1: I like these! *pointing to cocktail sausages!* Take for me please!
Fag Hag No 1: Ok ok... how much you want?
Guy No 1: As much as I can take it.

*laughters*

Too bad none of them are my type. Hmmmm...
But it was fun to watch those mushy mushy moments though. :P

Bad V-Day

*Thursday, 14th February 2008*

Today was a bad day for me.

A

I'm in the office as usual, on all computers and TV to catch up with last night's news in the US region. Then I take a look on the daily report and my heart skipped a beat.

I oversold a client's shares. He wanted to sell 100 shares only. But I entered 10,000 shares.

The next moment, my fingers ran across the calculator as fast as it could, trying to come out with the oversold amount. And my heart skipped another beat.

The rule is, if oversold the shares, the dealer representative will be required to buy back the excess shares with 10 bids higher. So if the share closed at 12.00, ten bids will be 13.00 (shares more than RM10 are ten cents per movement. RM 0.10 x 10 = RM1.00. So RM 12.00 + RM 1.00 = RM 13.00)

9900 * (13.00 - previous sell price, 11.60) = 13,860

My boss lose RM 13,860, exclude commissions.

So I'm in limbo the whole day, like waiting for Death god to come and take my soul away.

B



Click here for lyric.

Isn't he cute in white shirt and white pants?

But then... today is the first time I felt so down while listening to it and eventually, I cried.

Where is the "shoulder of comfort" when you needed one?

14th of February

*Tuesday, 12nd February 2008*

I have another extra activity to do at home lately. I finally installed Internet at home and got it running since Sunday. I wanted to download movies, mp3s, programs but my hard drive capacity is reaching its limit so that will have to wait till I get a new hard drive.

Was on MSN with Savante, Api, AhBong and Fable Frog last night when they mentioned about Valentine's Day (14th February).

Heart-shaped cookies, anyone?

Most of the bloggers on the right of the navigation bar are attached and will be celebrating with their significant others. For singles like me and um, perhaps you who're reading this, what does Valentine's Day mean to you?

Mom used to tell us the story of the Chinese Valentine's Day, the Cowherd and the Waiver Maid or Tanabata as the Japanese called it when we were still small. The mortal Niulang (Cowherd, the star Altair or Hikoboshi) married the fairy Zhi Nu (Waiver Maid, the star Vega or Orihime) secretly which was a forbidden act. When Zhi Nu's mother, the Goddess of Heaven found out, she was infuriated and separate the two lovers forever by creating the sky river (Milky Way). Both of them are forced to sit at both side of the river and never be together. But once a year all the magpies in the world take pity on them and fly up into heaven to form a bridge so the lovers may be together for a single night, the seventh night of the seventh moon.

Now I know why HK TVB came out with their latest romance drama named "The Seventh Day" (最美麗的第七天).

Valentine's doesn't necessary mean that you have to do like what the majority does; book a table for candlelight dinner in some poshy restaurants with wine, chocolate, roses and romantic music which might bore a hole in your wallet.

Some might give away teddies or pinky Valentine's Day greeting cards and shiny presents adorned with hearts, arrows and cherubs but how many people would actually keep and re-read them five or ten years later, and laugh on themselves, reminiscing how silly they were last time? My Ex would just chuck the card into the garbage bag. I saw him do that before to the hand made card his fling gave him.

Why would one buys gift only on special occasions like Valentine's or birthdays? Surely, your partner or spouse deserve to be loved and adored everyday!

What does Valentine's mean to you?

From My Playlist 8

*Monday, 11st February 2008*



窗外开始下起毛毛雨 (It started to drizzle outside the window)
云遮住了星星 (The clouds covered the stars)
夜深了还没有睡意 (Doesn't feel sleepy even it's already midnight)
翻来覆去的想你 (And just thinking of you no matter what I do)
时钟滴答滴答的声音 (The clock sounds "di da di da")
像在说我爱你 (I wanted to say "I Love You" again)
转过2点3点到6点 (It turns from 2am, 3am and 6am)
恨不得快点见到你 (Just hope to see you as soon as possible)
幸福的距离 就算万公里 (The distance of happiness, eventhough it's thousands of kilometres)
在你眼里有我想要勇气 (I saw the courage I wanted from your eyes)
从南极飞到北极 南京到北京 (From south to north, from Nanjing to Beijing)
你的笑胜过那些美景 (Your smile looked much better than a nice landscape)
我们勾勾手 就一言为定 (Crossing little fingers, we promised to each other)
我会傻傻的好好的爱你 (I will love you with all my heart)
你的名加我的姓 (Your last name, plus my surname)
永远在一起 (Be together for eternity)
拥抱多过千言万语 (Our hugs expressed more than a thousand words)

~Happy Valentine's Day~

Eve of CNY

*Monday, 11st February 2008*

It's my first time going back home for Chinese New Year. I made a correct choice to follow my friend's car instead of taking the bus (horror!) despite the fact that we can only leave KL on New Year's Eve. But the dude... seemingly reluctant to return home to see his parents although he only go back once a year.

AT: Let's go for breakfast.

One hour later...

AT: I think I wanna have my haircut first.
Azzuro Hyperion: Tell me you're not delaying the time. :P
AT: No no...

And so we headed to Sg. Wang and he picked a saloon which was still open that day, while I waited for him. Most shops were not open yet (or closed?). The hairdresser (whatever you call them) was too talkative by the way. I flipped some women mags (no choice, they only provide those) and read the Event pages. Saw some pictures of Jonathan Cheng and Ken Lim and bla bla bla....

Traffic, luckily was smooth along the highway and the sun was shining brightly. What a lovley day to go Cameron Highlands or somewhere else far away from work and office but no, we're heading home.

Ipoh was freaking HOT, I tell you. The thermometer in my house showed 38 degrees.

Prelude to CNY...

*Tuesday, 5th February 2008*

In about 24 hours, the Chinese from around the world will celebrate Chinese New Year, Year of the Rat. While I was going to get my lunch just now, I got an SMS:

PLU & Chinese New Year Eve Gathering
Date: 6 & 7 Feb 2008
Time: 9.00pm
Venue: Friend's Café, Ipoh Garden East
"A gathering to keep friendship forever."

Expecting a large number of mutants aka X-Men there tomorrow night + fancy apparels + quirky hairstyles + plenty of bling-bling and the list goes on.

Yawn. Maybe I should just stay home.

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone. Remember not to drink and drive. ;)